Wednesday, March 26, 2008

Bella's Creations

I used to have my creations on a different server but it hasn’t been uploading since 2006 so I uploaded them all to photobucket. So if you want to check out my Myspace Creations, My Scrapbook things, and my PSP Creations

Bella’s Creations

Look on the left hand side there are links to take you to each library.

Friday, March 21, 2008

Easter Pictures

Job Opportunity

Now wanted Proud Military Wives!
This is your mission if you choose to accept it.
Be a good Army Wife. Army wives are faithful. Not just to their husbands (a typical wife can do the same), Be faithful to your friends. Ignore gossip. Ignore the rude remarks of a Military wife going through a deployment. No matter if its her 1st or 100th. Any house can seem like your healthy, happy home but we don't know what personal demons each of are fighting. We don't know what goes on behind those doors. Don't try to assume or else you will be one of those Military Wives who gossip and feed on drama. On the other side of the fence we are all understanding that each of us get moody at times but that's no reason to be degrading, insulting, and just treat others like they are worthless. We are often told that we are a family of our own. That each of us are sisters and brothers. Treat us accordingly. Being a military wife is a job. More of a job than I imagined even watching my sister become apart of our great military and then herself a stay at home Air Force Wife. I watched her suffer through deployment and a hardship tour. The deployment came and she was carrying my twin niece and nephew. She's a brave one in my opinion. My older niece was 4 at the time as well. She had quite her hands full. Now I have become an Army Wife. I try and send letters everyday even if its a post card with a few thoughts. I try and send a care package weekly. I never realized how bad they would need things. In between letters, packages, emails and such I am always on the look out for something else special or something that is a treat he would enjoy in his box and would make his day as he cracks open the tight seal on that flat rate package. Being a Military Wife is a job like being a mom. You don't get days off, You don't get sick days, Your on call at all hours of the night when they decide they need to hear your voice or they have that brief moment in their day to call. You worry sick about your loved ones. My husband personally requires a lot of my attention and he deserves it. There is a lot more to being a military wife than taking care of the troops, being patriotic and doing just what we do on our own at home. Its about supporting our peers which is our fellow Military Wives. No matter what branch of service their husband's serve under, what rank our husband's are at, What the situation is... Being a Military Wife is a Job. You don't always like the jobs you need to do. You don't always like your boss. But its your duty to serve here on the home front as much as it is for our husbands to serve abroad. At times we must mow the grass when the heat is at its highest. Sometimes we must travel miles to just spend some time with our husbands. We must sacrifice time. We wash his uniform with pride and run the family house with order, and We must surround ourselves with people that we wouldn't be friends with otherwise. But we serve with pride in our Silent Ranks. We meet people that we cherish for our whole lives. We have experiences other's only dream of. We have experiences that is someone else's worst nightmare.
Being a Military Wife is a Job, A Payless job with very little benefits but we are rewarded with so much more. I am a proud Army Wife who serves in the Silent Ranks for a year now and will be serving for a total of 3 or 4. Then for Rick he has chosen to try my world. When we "retire" from the military world we will still serve in someway as a Military Mom and Dad supporting Alexander on his journey.


Rick and now try to leave our webcam's rolling most of our days and nights so we can keep an eye on each other. Even while we sleep. We are on opposite schedules. He works mostly while I sleep and vice versa. He put me to bed last night and I cuddled in bed and flipped open my Nintendo DS for awhile just to do something and unwind. I could see my window with his webcam in it from my bed. I would glance up and he was reading a book by his computer. I closed my DS and cuddled up with some blankets and it felt like almost we were cuddling. Virtually Cuddling. I could almost smell him, feel him, touch him as he read his book. I didn't share my thoughts with him till this morning. Its almost as if he was here in my bed. It didn't feel so lonely. What a blessing Technology has given us.

He left me two emails for me to read this morning.


As I peer upon your troubled soul, restless as you try to sleep, your troubled dreams and thoughts tangle in your head, as a whirlwind images and thoughts tumble hither on on within your minds eye keeping sleep at bay. know my love that you can sleep, dream, and rest in my arms and my thoughts, I will watch over your sleep and guard your dreams and keep the nightmares reigned in.. for I am yours as you are mine
sleep my angel
sleep mia bella
and rest your thoughts
and dream of us

Watching You

I sit here, your blankie on my chair watching the drama that is the Stevens show, Tink wondering atop huddled body, licking and playing, wanting attention of her person, Skylar arms wrapped around her dolly a raggedy Annie as Tink plays with her, you cuddling a blanket dreaming of your far away lover, as he watches you .. sleep and dream
what a family. As James sleeps in the living room, seeking his own path, I love you baby
treasure and miss you ..always

Wednesday, March 5, 2008

Come Home Soon

Does anyone really understand what its like to be a military wife?

There are some of us military wives who are crazy and start calling names to each other. There are wives who sleep around. Then there are us wives no matter how we are told we can't live by the computer or the telephone. We SLEEP with our telephone. We wait for a message on the computer that just says I love you!

We wait for those four second phone calls that just say Hi that are full of static and then the connection drops.

We know they are safe at that moment but our worst fears also rise and our hearts and our hope sinks.

This is NOT fun. This is NOT easy. There is NOTHING easy about this.

Don't be fooling yourself by saying well she signed up for it. Wouldn't you sign up for anything your soul mate asked you to? I know I would. I know I would do anything for his love even let him go.

I heard so many times You signed up for this you knew it was coming. Nothing about that phrase puts me at ease.


Right now I sit here crying when I rather be laying in my bed. I cry alone. I can't talk to my step son about it because he is terrorized enough. Even though we tried to get him to man up. He doesn't deserve to see my pain too. My five year old wouldn't understand. Thankfully she is sound asleep since its almost 11 o'clock. Its hard for me to cry to my fellow Army Wives because again I get the tough love. NOT that I don't need it. OH boy do I need it. But sometimes its just GOOD to have a GOOD cry. I would NEVER tell my closest friend Well at least your husband is in Korea, but this time I am hurting so bad I want to. I know he's not safe too. I know he's hurting like Rick is hurting. They have a newborn. Thats gotta be SO hard!


The next time your spouse works overtime all week. The next time he has to travel. The next time he does a side job and doesn't help put the children to bed. Be THANKFUL. If you want to tell yourself that my husband signed up to work without a day off. Without seeing his family.. then go ahead and tell yourself that but inside I HOPE you hang your head in shame.


I don't need to get pity or a shoulder to cry on. The only shoulder I want is my husbands. I don't want to be in bed because he's not there. He's my best friend. He's all I want or need.

I just love him and miss him.

Sunday, March 2, 2008

I love you more than yesterday. Less than tomorrow. Everyday of our future

Resized Navy hat P3030021

How did I spend my evening? I spent it looking through old messages, IM,s and emails. Between you and I. Some of them made me laugh most of them made me cry. Some were emails between friends some were between two people falling in love. The naughty tales still give me tingles. My heart throbs and misses you. You just called bad connection I had four minutes and I didn't get to say I love you. Now my heart is sad again and misses you more. I will talk to you when I wake up.