Monday, October 29, 2007

If you can't stand behind them try to stand in front of them!

RedFriNew YellowRibNew YellowRibbon stand


So I woke up this morning and felt a little better. I totaled my car on Saturday and Sunday my neck was stiff that I didn't want to move it. USAA called me, this morning, and I got out of bed and then the back spasms started. The lady on the phone with me is like look you need to be seen. I am supposed to have preferential treatment at the Army Health Center because Rick is deployed. Some lady came in to the Waiting Spouses meeting and we talked about all this benefits for us at the Army health center. Gave us a phone number to call so we didn't have to wait on hold for appointments. Usually the wait time to make an appointment is 30-40 minutes. I called the # and had to leave a message. Ok what is the difference if I have to leave a message and have you call me back or I wait on hold for 30 minutes right? She calls me back and she's like yeah why did you call my private line? I was like because I am a waiting spouse and this is the number they gave me to call. She's like oh well its ok to call the appointment line now I was just at the appointment desk and we have three new doctors so there isn't much of a wait. So she said the ONLY appointment she had for me was at 9 am on Tuesday. Yes I turned it down because Skylar has to go to playgroup and ballet. I am not going to make her miss the Halloween party and ballet because of my pain that may or may not be anything or may or may not even be treated by these people. I had to repeat my symptoms to this lady numerous times. Whole time she is bitching about her computer and how I could have called the appointment line. She wasn't even listening to me. Mary Breaden who is the head of the waiting spouses from Army Community Service was calling while I was on the phone. I even said to the lady on the line on Mary Breaden from ACS is calling. She's like I don't know a Mary. So I turned down the 9 am appointment and called Mary back just to tell her about the accident but then I started bitching about the health service and how it was useless that we had preferential treatment. She's like oh no you need to call back and say so and so says. By the time I got back on the actual Appointment line I was the third in line in que. I forgot their names. No biggie I got an appointment on Thursday. I said oh if I feel better I will just call and cancel again they said this is the only appointment they had. Oh wait I thought Tuesday was the only appointment you had? Now all of a sudden I call back and you give me a new appointment time? I wasn't asked  to be pushed in right away. I just wanted to make sure everything was in check. Well I am over at my friends house today decorating cookies. I started getting weak and spacey and woozy. Then I was getting pissed at them. I was like WTH my husband is deployed and I am taking care of three "kids" and you want me to be out of it? What if I did have whiplash or a serious injury? I can't go off post because then they probably wouldn't even pay for an ER visit. How is the Army taking care of the spouses while the husbands are gone? This is ridiculous! How can I take care of three kids being this weak. What's worse is my friend was telling me her husband is over seas but not in the sandbox. He woke up in the middle of nowhere and he didn't know where he was or how he got there being chased by cops. PTSD (Post Traumatic stress disorder) and because of where he is at he's not getting treatment for PTSD! AGAIN IMHO that's ridiculous! He could end up dead! How is the military really taking care of our soldiers? They don't give a crap! Next person I encounter who says a bad damn thing about the troops is literally going to get spit on if not knocked into next week by me because these guys and gals go through torture and I don't see proof the government cares about them at all!

Sunday, October 28, 2007

What is the most creative Halloween costume you've ever seen or worn yourself?

I was going to be something really girlie one year and then it started having snow flurries so my dad threw together the headless man costume. I thought it was cute :)

Brother Stalker?

Since Alex has came home. He started laundry, ate his burger king, took the three S's LOL and played on his laptop in the Living room floor. Skylar sat quietly on the couch behind him till she passed out around 8. I carried her to bed with me and then the first thing she says when she woke up this morning. Mommy what do you think Alex is doing? I said James and Alex are playing games why don't you go watch so now she's been watching the boys play games. James finally passed out I am sure he was up all night. Alex is on James' computer and Skylar is watching quietly. She hasn't left his side.

You can take the cat out of the wild but you can't take the wild out of her

Sometimes my 11 year old cat Lightening gets in these moods. She will start walking around howling. I guess its a territorial thing maybe its just cause she is lonely?

Yesterday I hear her making this low meowing sound and she walks into the room with a fake mouse toy that I bought for the other cat. Drops it at my feet. Aww she loves her mommy! LOL

Saturday, October 27, 2007

Rough Week

What a rough week.
I wanted to quit smoking this week and if I did I would be setting myself up for failure.
First Sprint Billing got messed up do to too many changes in our plan. James and I got that fixed. Then Alex's schedule changed. Alex my oldest step son who is now 21 and in the army himself. He is going oversea's in a few weeks and he decided to come "home" and visit his siblings before he left. He wanted me to pick him up in Atlanta. Rick said firm no he can buy a bus ticket cheaper than you driving and your just not ready. So off on the bus Alex goes after spending the night in Atlanta. Oh I was pissed at his changes and the lack of me knowing anything in advance. But then it turned to worry. I was raised in Atlanta I have seen the roughness of it. Bless his heart. Then he finally arrived in Huntsville about 4 today I pick him up and on the way back from the grey hound station I get in a car accident and I think the car is  totaled . I am pretty sure the police ruled it no-fault but since I am very new at driving & new to Huntsville I am not sure. But my friends who met me up there reassured me I would be ok and that it was probably a no-fault. My friend was nice enough to come get Alex, Skylar and I. Take us back to our house. Drop of Alex's belongings. I think he brought everything he owned! What he didn't have on his back he shipped and it arrived this morning. We are all ok from the accident and the other car was even driveable at least enough to get her home I think and everyone was ok in that car. As I said my friends came and got us took us to drop of Alex's stuff then took us to Burger King so Alex could have real food and I could talk to James about the car. I told James just a warning but my friends would be picking him up when he got off. Then they took me to the gas station to get some final things I knew I would be needing. Luckily I went to the grocery store this morning and got some food but not much since its the end of the month and I am low on cash. I talk to Rick when he woke up today and he is ok with everything concerned about me and feels bad he can't be here to do something about it. They say when the Army does this to a family that everything breaks well the most expensive thing we had broke! Thank God we don't own this house we live in. Well we have the other house but oh geez. I left out details of the accident and some other drama from around here. My heart is just broken I let my husband and kids down. Its very hard for me to take and the way Rick takes it the way he does he is Husband of the Year in my book. I am very lucky to have him and we are deeply in love.

Monday, October 22, 2007

3 Months

3 Months ago today. Rick started his training in Kansas. We have seen each other a total of a week since then. We have a long journey ahead of us while he finishes his deployment in the next year but we will make it. I am proud for all he has accomplished and what he does for me (us too!)

Wax Anyone


Hair Removal....This is funny. (I don't have a clue as to

who wrote this, but...WHAT A HOOT!)...................

All hair removal methods have tricked women with their

promises of easy, painless removal - The Epilady, scissors,

razors, Nair and now...the wax. Read on.........

My night began as any other normal weeknight. Come home,

fix dinner, play with the kids. I then had the thought that

would ring painfully in my mind for the next few hours:

Maybe I should pull the waxing kit out of the medicine


So I headed to the site of my demise: the bathroom. It was

one of those "cold wax" kits. No melting a clump of hot

wax, you just rub the strips together in your hand, they

get warm and you peel them apart and press them to your leg

(or wherever else) and you pull the hair right off.

Sunday, October 21, 2007

Video Blog You Save Me

Check out this video: Kenny Chesney - You Save Me

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Every now and then
I get a little lost
The strings all get tangled
The wires all get crossed
Every now and then
I'm right upon the edge
Danglin' my toes out over the ledge
I just thank God you're here

['Cause] when I'm a bullet shot out of a gun
['Cause] when I'm a firecracker comin' undone
When I'm a fugitive ready to run
All wild-eyed and crazy
No matter where my reckless soul takes me
Baby you save me

It's hard lovin' a man
That's got a gypsy soul
I don't know how you do it
I'm not sure how you know
The perfect thing to say
To save me from myself
You're the angel that believes in me
Like nobody else
And I thank God you do


Well I know I don't tell you nearly enough
I couldn't live one day without your love

When I'm a ship tossed around on the waves
Up on a high wire that's ready to break
When I've had just about all I can take
Baby, you,
Baby you save me


I am sitting here in tears watching this video. Not because your so far away. Not because your in danger. But because your love runs so deep its scary. Words have escaped me when your on the phone other than small talk and the I love you's. As always I am better writing than I am saying it aloud. I wouldn't even be able to verbalize my words already written. I've heard this song a time or two before but each time I hear it I do think of us. How you say I am your anchor keeping you sane and steady in the rough waters. Oh god it gets so emotional for me. Perhaps thats why my tongue doesn't wrap around the words. Finally a beautiful man saved me and he thinks **I** hung the moon and stars. HA! He's made a home for us not a house but a home and it could be all gone tomorrow and I would still feel at home as long as I had you and our kids. A home is built within the heart and when pieces of your heart are missing or your missing them thats when you feel homesick. Every now and then I get a little weary... and you save me. When you sense I may be twirling down or giving up.. Baby you save me. I know you don't think so. But it's so simple. You just tell me how proud you are of me and how much you love me and thats enough to give me hope and push forward and I am stronger than before. gah, just the words of the song speak how we feel, both of us. I can't imagine living one day without your love. Baby You Save Me.

Saturday, October 20, 2007

The Beauty of God’s Blessings - October 20

People who depend on circumstances and other people for the strength they need to keep going will constantly be frustrated and worried, like a pilot flying a plane whose fuel tank is empty and there is no place to land for refueling. But people who depend on Jesus Christ to energize and motivate the inner person have the adequacy they need for every circumstance of life.

~~Warren W. Wiersbe
The 20 Essential Qualities

Which deceased or living person would you clone and why?

I don't believe in human cloning. But it would have to be my grandfather because he is the best person I have ever known.

Fools Rush In

I just love this movie :)

Army Wedding Vows

Those of you who know us you know the Preacher forgot some vows to recite so here we go...

Body: Army Wedding Vows
Body: If the Army wanted you to have a wife, it would have issued you one.

Dear family and friend, we are gathered here today in the sight of God and the Department of the Army to witness this exchange of vows and to see the love that these dedicated, loving people have for one another.

I, ______________________________________ , take (who was once referred to as the ‘dependent’), as your Family Member, to dwell together in so far as the Department of the Army will permit?”

“Wilt thou love her, comfort her via the Postal Service or over the telephone, make sure she knows where the commissary, PX, clinic and the church are and what time she is scheduled to use the laundry room the day she arrives, wherever you are stationed?”

“Wilt thou attempt to tell her more than 24 hours in advance that you will be leaving for two weeks, beginning the next morning? This especially applies to the years you will live in a foreign country!”

“Wilt thou, , take this soldier as thy wedded husband, knowing that he is depending upon you to be the perfect (well, almost) Army Wife, running the household as you see fit and being nice to the Commander’s Wife (even when it is hard to)? Further, you understand that your life with your husband (little that you may have together) will not be normal, that you may have to explain to your children, not once but twice and more often in the same day, that mothers do have husbands, that children do have daddies, and that the picture of the man on the refrigerator is not the milkman, but the same individual who tucks the in at 2200 hours, long after they are asleep. This soldier is their daddy, who loves then very, very much”

"Wilt thou love, respect and wait for him, preparing his favorite meals when he does come home and freezing them when he doesn’t? When he is gone wilt thou send him all his favorite cookies and pictures of yourself and the children so he can remember what you look like? When you are separated on your anniversaries (which will happen more often than not) you will remember this special day and celebrate it on the closest day possible to the actual date. And last but not least, put on the outside of the door his ‘WELCOME HOME’ sign when he is due to arrive.”

“I, , take thee
, as my independent wife from 1900 to 2200 hours or as long as allowed by my Commanding Officer (subject to change without notice) for better or worse, earlier or later, near or far, and promise to look at the pictures you send me, maybe not when they get to me in the field, but before I turn out the lights. I will also send you a letter if time permits, and if not, to somehow, someway make the time. I will also remember this special day and will try to telephone you somehow, someway on the anniversaries we are separated.”

Friday, October 19, 2007


I was looking for a Poem by Napoleon but I cam across this instead I had to change some of the words to translate it

Listen to the wind, my honey
listen how my beats are flying away
comi' into you in silennce
my thought are lost and cryin'.
Listen to the night,my love
there is no distance between us
everything is inside my hand
from the firs moment we met
till the end of time.
This is a no where to run
only your eyes and mine are here
only a feelin' inside us
that makes happiness in our hearts.
I finally know what I feel
Ijust find what I've lost
and ther's no hell to damm love
'cause my heart would breake
but I'll still fell in love.

Army Needs new Motto's

Hurry up and Wait... You know how HARD this is for a military wife? Do you really want me to freaking go postal by hurrying up and waiting on word? UGH!

I heard this at boot camp... If the Army wanted you to have a wife they would have issued you one? Does this mean you shouldn't be married? Just married to the damn military? LOL

Army of One... Ok so why do they need my husband to fight the war on terror when they only need an Army of One? LMAO

My Day

Today was a pretty bland day. I took James to work early this morning and came home and talked to Rick. Then I cleaned up some. Watched Obsession. Skylar quickly got bored playing SIMs on my computer. I think she likes to annoy me with Can I play sims? More than she actually likes playing it. Or maybe mommy would just pull something sneaky by not watching her play on MY computer LOL. Then shortly after 3 I picked up James from work came and dropped him and Skylar off and ran to the bank and to the PX to grab ice creams. Then home again and sat around till the power went out. I went to Target driving was BAD BAD BAD. But we got a few groceries and came home where I sit once again.

Is the idea of marriage too outdated for the 21st century?

I might have answered differently till I fell in love with my husband.

Thursday, October 18, 2007

What makes a book 'good' and why?

Of course a book with a topic your interested in reading about. Its like a movie it has to have a good story line. It has to flow well. Keep me interested in the end. For me personally I can get bored with a book easily. Usually I read Romance Novels, Inspirational, Biography's, and some others. I guess I have to walk away from the book with more knowledge when I opened it unless its a romance novel. Oh and a book most certainly trigger your imagination.

God James

I bought Skylar a box of cheese its because she asked for it. Then James eats them. Rick and I yell at him about it. he says No one told me they were for Skylar. I buy a second box of cheese its for Skylar again James eats them. I bought her a can of soup and gold fish to go with the soup. I fix soup tonight and I said James did you eat the Goldfish? He's like yeah? I was like OMG James! He's like I like Goldfish. NO ONE told me they were for Skylar. I said Goldfish is a toddler food I thought the first box of cheese its and me buying a second box would be your clue! I said the cat likes goldfish too did I buy them for her? LOL
PITA will not eat FOOD just junk. If it looks like Junk food and has been in the cabinet 24 hours and doesn't contain chocolate you can kiss it good bye

Sunday, October 14, 2007

What To wear

What  to wear when the

wife has chores for  you...

What is your Biggest Regret?

“Sometimes, struggles are exactly what we need in our life. If we were to go through our life without any obstacles, we would be crippled. We would not be as strong as what we could have been. Give every opportunity a chance, leave no room for regrets.”

I try to live my life without regrets. For the hardest challenges of my life I can think of a learning lesson of why I failed. I can also think of a possible reason why it didn't go the way I wanted it. I thank God for unanswered prayers. I may not like how I handled a certain situation but that just shows the person I am or I was. The unfortunate are the ones who have to pay for my mistakes and the ones who never learn from theirs.

   “Never let go of hope. One day you will see that it all has finally come together. What you have always wished for has finally come to be. You will look back and laugh at what has passed and you will ask yourself... 'How did I get through all of that?”

"There are no regrets just life lessons" ~ Jennifer Anniston.


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Saturday, October 13, 2007

Theme Care Packages

Someone in LJ land (no I haven't been cheating) posted about Theme'd Care Packages. Anyone do this? Like things for holidays? If so I need more inspiration and explanation... Give me some ideas and get a surprise!

Love Bella
T.I.A. **Thanks in advance

Friday, October 12, 2007

Red Shirt Fridays

This came by email:
Last week, while traveling to Chicago on business, I noticed a Marine sergeant traveling with a folded flag, but did not put two and two together.

After we boarded our flight, I turned to the sergeant, who'd been invited to sit in First Class (across from me), and inquired if he was heading home.

"No", he responded.

"Heading out", I asked?

"No. I'm escorting a soldier home".

"Going to pick him up"?

"No. He is with me right now. He was killed in Iraq, I'm taking him home to his family".

The realization of what he had been asked to do hit me like a punch to the gut. It was an honor for him. He told me that, although he didn't know the soldier, he had delivered the news of his passing to the soldier's family and felt as if he knew them after many conversations in so few days.

I turned back to him, extended my hand, and said, "Thank you. Thank you for doing what you do so my family and I can do what we do".

Upon landing in Chicago the pilot stopped short of the gate and made the following announcement over the intercom.

"Ladies and gentlemen, I would like to note that we have had the honor of having Sergeant Steeley of the United States Marine Corps join us on this flight. He is escorting a fallen comrade back home to his family. I ask that you please remain in your seats when we open the forward door to allow Sergeant Steeley to deplane and receive his fellow soldier. We will then turn off the seat belt sign".

Without a sound, all went as requested. I noticed the sergeant saluting the casket as it was brought off the plane, and his action made me realize that I am proud to be an American.

So here's a public Thank You to our military Men and Women for what you do so we can live the way we do.

Red Fridays.

Very soon, you will see a great many people wearing Red every Friday. The reason? Americans who support our troops used to be called the 'silent majority.'We are no longer silent, and are voicing our love for God, country and home in record breaking numbers. We are not organized, boisterous or overbearing.

Many Americans, like you, me and all our friends, simply want to recognize that the vast majority of America supports our troops. Our idea of showing solidarity and support for our troops with dignity and respect starts this Friday -- and continues each and every Friday until the troops all come home, sending a deafening message that .. every red-blooded American who supports our men and women afar, will wear something red.

By word of mouth, press, TV -- let's make the United States on every Friday a sea of red much like a home coming football game in the bleachers.

If every one of us who loves this country will share this with acquaintances, coworkers, friends, and family, it will not be long before the USA is covered in RED and it will let our troops know the once 'silent' majority is on their side more than ever, certainly more than the media lets on.

The first thing a soldier says when asked "What can we do to make things better for you"? is; "We need your support and your prayers". Let's get the word out and lead with class and dignity, by example, and wear something red every Friday.
Pssst! Pass it on!

If you were brain dead, would you want to be kept alive by a ventilator? Why or why not?

Depends on how Brain dead. Rick and I have deep discussions over this...

I mean after Teri Shiavo's death they didn't truly know how brain dead she was. I still don't think she deserved to starve to death. They won't make the worst criminals in the world or even an animal starve to death why should a sick woman starve? If your brain dead. I feel your soul has already left your body so what does it matter if your body wastes away if thats your families choice? No its not healthy but I can't tell my husband and children how to grieve. As long as its not a selfish act as far as keeping money rolling in. I know a little girl in Georgia who was born days after Skylar. I remember I heard Code Blue in L&D. I was thinking that can't be good. Then my boyfriend at the time was working with her step-grandfather. I met the family and later ran into the mother in Wal-Mart. Basically the child was deprived too much air in the birth canal due to neglence by the Hospital/MidWife. The little girl in all levels of the world is brain dead her body has basic functions... She needs a feeding tube but breathes on her own. She has seziures... Will never speak unless God wants it so... Will never walk by all medical diagnosis... Does that mean they should starve their child who is almost five now? Shouldn't it be God's decision when to take you?

Msg to my Battle Buddy I hope I don't scare her away

Hey. I had an ok day myself. My friend needed me to take her to the Army Clothing, Then the PX, Then we went to Burger King for Lunch. Came home for a few hours long enough to speak to my hubby online. Then my little girl was whining to go play with her friend. I really enjoy hanging out with them so we went over there till it was time to pick up my step son from work. Then I wanted to go get some flameless candles so I can have candles burning all day and night for my hubby :) I ended up spending $100 at Wal-mart LOL I really really shouldn't have. I got Skylar some accesorries for her Baby Alive doll I just bought. Plus they have Carebears Anniversary stuff. White Platinum Carebear with DVD for $20 and Cabbage Patch Kid with Carebear. She's so cute with her little Carebear outfit on. I couldn't resist her either. I had the true intention of waiting till Christmas to give it to her but she wanted to play with the doll and her Baby Alive. I saw something at Walmart and I thought to myself oh I want to show Rick. Then though man :( a picture wouldn't work well. Thats probably the hardest part for me is you can move on with your life but not really right? I am so tired of my neighbor who I thought was going to be a rock from me. She is a user and she is whiney. She's not dealing with this deployment very well. She forwards me emails from her husband that he plainly puts its his time to go to heaven. I don't think thats a good mentality for either of them. I dunno since this is my first time and I am only on day two but I know I can be stronger than that. Then my husband's first wife she locked herself in a mental hospital and I think that also was a bit extreme when she really should have been taking care of his boys. I think being strong is the most patriotic you can be. Its more patriotic than doing all the goofy stuff (even though I do that too) like Yellow Ribbons, red Shirt Fridays and my candles lol. I can't believe its Friday already. *** phone lines are sucking and it sucks he has to go outside to plug his laptop into a pole at 11 o'clock at night to IM me for a bit. But I will take what i can get its not that I just feel bad for him. He's definately got it worse than I do.

Ps So I am waiting here paitently for my hubby

Oh and Skylar also got a new Army T-shirt and a Dora Jacket and the other day she got a baby alive doll :x lol Do I have a problem?

Chris Lights

I got two flameless candles won't you join me?

Light a Small Light for a Big Reason     

In thousands of homes across the nation, a single light shining in a window has quickly become a universal symbol of love and support for the men and women in the US Military and our Allies deployed overseas to protect us and our country.

Put a light in your window and leave it shining night and day. No matter when our men and women in uniform come home, the lights will be on.

This is not a political issue. It is very simply about people who perform a job for us and letting them and their families know we are thinking of them.

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How Did This Project Get Started?

This project started in January, when our son Chris, a Lance Corporal in the US Marine Corps, left for the Middle East aboard the USS Bonhomme Richard. The day he left, we received an electric holiday candle with this note attached:

Once a Christmas light, now a Chris light. This candle is given to you by the neighborhood you have given so much to. We each have a candle just like this one. Starting tonight we will all put this light in our window and leave it on 24 hours a day until Chris returns home. The light it puts out is small, but the message is not. We are thinking of and praying for all of you, especially Chris. Please let him know that whenever he comes home, day or night, the lights will be on.

When we looked up, we saw the candle lights shining in the windows of each of our neighbors. These "Chris Lights" have continued to shine non-stop ever since-and will continue to do so until our son comes home.

But this isn't just about us. There are hundreds of thousands of men and women either on their way or already in the Middle East and other locations overseas.

Wouldn't it be incredible to support each and every one of them with a light in the window of every house, in every neighborhood, in every town across the country?

This is not a political issue. It is very simply about people who perform a job for us and letting them and their families know we are thinking of them

When we told our friends what our neighbors had done for us, they, too, put lights in their windows. From the original eight lights shining in our neighbourhood, there are now hundreds shining in our town and thousands shining across the country.

Stories of the "Chris Lights" have been featured on all of the major television stations in Boston, on National Public Radio and in major newspapers, including The Boston Globe and our local Needham Times.

We have received hundreds of phone calls, emails and letters from people across the country who have placed the small lights in their windows. We have also heard directly from military personnel around the world who say this gesture has meant so much to them in showing that we are united as a country in praying for the safe return of our troops, even if we remain divided in our political views.

It seems like such an easy thing to do, but it means so much to anyone who has a family member or friend overseas.

Help spread the news and spread the light.

What You Can Do

  • First, put an electric candle or small light in your window and leave it shining 24 hours a day!
  • Tell your family, friends and neighbors.
  • Encourage your local hardware and home stores to stock electric candles, which are normally only sold during the holiday season.
  • Contact your local television stations, newspapers and other media to encourage them to pick up the story.
  • Click here to send us an email and share your story. If you want to hear the stories of other families and servicemen and women, let us know - we'll add you to our mailing list and send out a regular collection of messages we've received.

Nancy and Dan Wright
Needham, Massachusetts USA

Wave of Light October 15th

October 15th Wave of Light for Pregnancy and Infant Loss

Hello Everyone!
World Wide Wave Of Light
Everyone is invited to light a candle at 7pm in ALL TIME ZONES, ALL OVER THE WORLD.
If everyone lights a candle at 7pm and keeps it burning for at least 1 hour, there will be a continuous WAVE OF LIGHT over the entire world on October 15th, Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.

For more information please go to:


Go Here to Download the WAVE OF LIGHT Graphic

Thursday, October 11, 2007

What makes you happy when you are sad?

Music makes me happy when I am sad. Just relaxing in the tub, crying it out, and just getting it out of my system.
Even talking about it or at least blogging it out helps relieve the stress. My ultimate pick me up is my husband. Thats what's been so hard about this deployment. I had to deal with years in an emotionally abusive relationship where I was never comforted. I was never told everything is going to be ok. I had the worst years of my life during that time. Now when I am going through what seems like hell at the time. Rick knows just the right way to touch me. To touch my soul, to ease my mind. He tells me it will be ok. He doesn't even have to. He brings the rational back into my insanity. So when I am crying he isn't here to do that. Then I know damn well I shouldn't be crying over something I have no control over.

Finally as I have preached before Give it to God, Pray about it then shake it off... There is nothing you can do about it so no sense stressing....

I am humbled

People are going to think I am really not very sane after reading this but its my faith so I can see it as I want. Its my blog I can say what I want.

Last night sleeping of course I leave my computer on. Of course I leave all my messengers on. I hear text messages on my cell phone but don't really open my eyes. Then I did wake up not long from 2:38 is when I recieved my last text message... then seconds before I recieved a call at 2:52. I woke up to check my text messages and the moment I read the first one. The caller ID flashed on my cell Unknown Caller. My heart soared! I read in my books what that meant! It was my husband. I didn't think I would hear from him for days. He said how are you doing baby? I said fine now that I heard your voice. I meant it! After we spoke only a minute.. I went outside and smoked and I just cried. Not tears of sadness or joy just tears... The song Cry out to Jesus came to mind then Jesus take the Wheel came to my mind... I just thought wow God you have truly humbled me, once again.

I really think that I woke up just seconds before Rick called was a blessing or a mini miracle. The fact that last time I talked to him before he left I was a mess now at 3 am in the morning I am so happy and whole as yesterday I was heartbroken, scared, and worried.... Just being able to wake up and hear his voice filled me with being whole again...

Tuesday, October 9, 2007

Can Science and Religon Co-Exist?

Depends on how you feel. My feeling is Religon is about faith. Science is not always fact there for it can't discredit religon. Religon alot of the bible is about interputation so there for one has little to do with the other.
one doesnt rule out the other unless your weakminded
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Lollipop IED

After the pumpkin Patch Skylar got a huge sucker and fell asleep holding it so I put it in a holder on my door panel and got too busy. James found it that night and gave it to Rick. Rick went to throw it out the window and instead hit the door frame Sucker went everywhere. All over the car, all over the road LOL. Funny times

Sunday, October 7, 2007

Should there ever be limits to the "Freedom of Speech"? Why?

Like as in burning your flag? Yes there should be a limit to destroying national treasures. If you don't like America get the hell out! Thats what I say... Secondly thats not a freedom of speech thats just destruction and disrespect. As long as your speech is peaceful as far as public marches etc then no you should be able to picket and speak your mind. Just do it appopriately but that goes without saying.

shooting star

Sitting outside I saw a shooting star

No Crying in Ballet

Last Tuesday I had a bad morning and bawled most of the morning. Well I had to take Skylar to ballet so I did... During Ballet Rick tells me there is no crying in Ballet. Then Skylar had to go to the potty when she got back she found out they already did their skipping exercise and she couldn't skip with Pegan's daughter Nicole. She got very upset and cried for sometime and wouldn't tell me why so I took her in another room and she told me. At the end of Ballet the teacher Mrs Kristi gave everyone stickers. Skylar got an orange star and the crying started again till Mackaylen gave Skylar a pink star. LOL What does Rick know?

Wednesday, October 3, 2007

Skylar’s Morning Funny


Skylar’s Morning Funny
Current mood: excited
Category: Life

Last night late at about midnight I went outside for my final smoke of the night.
There was a deer at the neighbor across the street's driveway at the very end right at the road.
We stared at each other for awhile since I thought he was a dog at first. I went to open the door to call James outside but then she ran away.
I told Skylar this morning I saw a deer last night
She asked me if he had a nose that glowed LOL